School

I am completely exhausted. I appreciated the comments people made, you're all right. Thanks for being great friends/family.
One bit of great news! Jared and I were released as Activities Committee chair-people. That is a load off my chest, and Jared's; he already had two callings! I did learn a great deal from that calling about how to be in charge. I dislike being in charge, however, and hope it doesn't come my way again for awhile now. I am happy to say that I enjoy the kids in primary, and that is starting to take away my anxiety of having to be in charge of singing-time every week.
I don't want my blog to become a weekly gripe of "how-hard-nursing-school-is", but I do want to record some of my thoughts and feelings on the subject, so I hope you as my reader aren't bored to tears.
I just finished my 3rd week of school. Deadlines are starting to pile up. I am struggling with balance, but try hard to have a little bit of scriptures and prayer at the start of everyday. My kids are feeling it too. In fact, I asked Jared recently, "am I sacrificing our family for this?" He said, "no", and reminded of all the reasons that I am doing this right now. I have entertained the questions of "why now?" and "Why don't I wait until everyone gets older?" Well, I thought blogging my answer to the question "why am I in nursing school now?" would help me in times I am ready to throw in the towel. I picked nursing school because I felt like it would a stable occupation if I ever needed to use it. I admit the number one reason I am in nursing school is I want to be a nurse. I am excited for the chance it is to take care of people. I like people, and hope that I can help people help themselves. I want to be a nurse because it is something I can do anywhere, it has a flexible schedule, and I will be able to get to know people of all different backgrounds. There is a certain amount naivety that goes along with these statements. I know that it won't be like it is on TV, that sometimes I will be frustrated, or that I will won't be able to work in "the perfect" job right away. Having said this, I really am excited to have the knowledge and skills to help people who are in need of help. Why now? well, I don't think it will ever be easy, no matter when I do it! Am I justifying? I honestly don't think so. I feel like this is the best thing for me and my family's future, even though the present is challenging. I feel like I am trying to convince you, as the reader, but I really am just trying to remind myself of why I started on this project. As I have started into it, I feel it will be life changing. I might have to change many things about myself. I think, however, that I will be a better person because of it. So next week when I am tired of studying I will come back to this blog and it will encourage me to keep going. One day at a time.